a sixth sense cannot make up for a complete lack of common sense
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-best known as May Ching-
-09/01/1990-
-19 years 1.2 months-
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Friday, April 11, 2008, 8:18 pm
Sigh.Today's post will be very emo and relatively short.
I got my PW grade today... I got a C... and I want to go and jump off a building already.
Somebody once told me some interesting things about suicide in Singapore: if you want to commit suicide by throwing yourself off a building, jump from the 9th floor and above otherwise you won't die instantly. And of course, the higher up you go, the more splatter you'll leave for the undertakers to scrape off the floor. What's more, killing yourself in a HDB area is highly inconsiderate because you'll not only traumatise some poor innocent kids who see you jump or stumble upon your remains, the price of units in the area will plunge as well. Apparently, there was a case where this kid made eye contact with a person falling and never was the same again.
So if I do decide to top myself (haven't reached a conclusion yet) I'll go kill myself in a more pleasant manner, one that will inconvenience as few people as possible. Yeah, like prepare a coffin and lie down in it, closing the lid as I die. XP
As you can see, I'm already in a negative state of mind. Not a good condition to do a lot of thinking today, as I did, about my life and everything.
Conclusions? I've realised how wrong I've been. I've been so horribly wrong about everything about you. But there's nothing I can do, because I can't bring myself to do what's right. I've been foolish, wasting my time and efforts.
Admittance is the first step to recovery.
I'll get better.